ارجوكم لا تسخروا منى .. جودى بلانكو

my first book in the project was "plz dont muck me" for jody blanko and i remembered how i got abused when i was a kid at my school the good thing was jody parents they did so good raising her to stand by her believes and stood by her all the way .

and i have learned that we dont ignore who hurt us we must defend ourselves and never let it go ignorance solve so little that we dont need to use it with others .

jody have wrote 2 books only but she has managed to convert her pain in to world wide project and they teach her book in schools nw .

most of the time i didnt enjoy what i red but that's ok we don't suppose to enjoy the suffer of others .

what catches my eyes during the book was the parents fear to change her school they thought that might help her running away and not facing her problems .. although jody didn't stand for her rights and used to ignore it and that make others hurt her more.

also when we are children we should be allowed to live our age and have fun through it not acting like grown up coz the time will come and when we are all grown up we can't be children..

jody had a positive attitude all za way she took all her pain and write about it no wonder her book is a best seller .

the real delama was " either i love myself and other hates me or i hate myself and other respects me ! " u think it's easy question but u gotta live it to answer it.

her grandma said to her"jody u can conquer sadness,loneliness ,and even great loss but guilt stay and die with you" grandma got a point.

along the story jody got stronger she manage to refuse apologies from the ones used to be her friends and finished 8 class with pride.

it's not the love you can't take when u r iluminate ,it's the love you can't give and nobody want that hurts alot.



تذكرنى جودى هنا بوضع ملائكه على الارض مثلا او يوتوبيا فهى لا تستطيع هضم اى ظلم ولا اى تقصير من احد لا ترضى الا بالكمال فى عالم يدمن انصاف الاشياء ومن يفعل القليل من الخير يجد نفسه يستكثره بلا داعى وهكذا فهى تعانى لكن بلا صمت فهى تدفع ثمن صوت روحها الحره والدفاع عن مبادئها على عكس الكثير

at some point she asked herself do i really want wt i want?? do i really wanna be that famous and lovable she said yes i do but doubt it saying may be that's not that important and i need to accept and appreciate what i got.

تذكرنى جودى هنا بوضع ملائكه على الارض مثلا او يوتوبيا فهى لا تستطيع هضم اى ظلم ولا اى تقصير من احد لا ترضى الا بالكمال فى عالم يدمن انصاف الاشياء ومن يفعل القليل من الخير يجد نفسه يستكثره بلا داعى وهكذا فهى تعانى لكن بلا صمت فهى تدفع ثمن صوت روحها الحره والدفاع عن مبادئها على عكس الكثير

 وعلى الرغم من انى اعلم بان الكثير من الاصدقاء لا يهم الا انى اريد العديد منهم حتى ان كانوا لا يشبعون غرورى

من الغريب ان احسد جودى على قوة ردودها بالرغم من انى اعلم مقدار ما تريده من ان تصبح مقبوله اجتماعيا ..فانا احسد فاشله على اسلوب فشلها فانا لم اقترب من مقدار فشلها حتى ..

يكفى..امى اجعليه يذهب هذا الالم فى صدرى انها لحظه انهيار جودى فبعد مراحل الصعود والنزول لم تكن تريد شيئا الا ان يتوقف العالم وكفى

جميل ان قوة التخيل قوة عظمى لمن يستطيع السيطره عليها وفهمها جيدا.. فبعض مرضى السرطان يتم شفائهم بتخيل ان خلاياهم السليمه تلتهم المرض وتقضى عليه..

كم هو رائع ان تتوفر لديك الامكانيات لتحقيق احلامك وايضا التفهم لها دون حكم الاخرين على ان ماتريده لن يفيد!!

مع انى وصلت لنهايه الكتاب لكن مازالت تبهرنى شجاعه ردودها وقوتها كيف لها شابه تعرضت للكثير لا تابه ابدا وردودها محكمه هكذا؟

..هذا ما يكلفك كونك منبوذا حساسيتك يميل الناس الى اعتبار ان سرعه التاثر بانها امر سىء..

book review -project

I have come to that conclusion that i have never finished anything in my life and i do luv to do a lot of things and dream about it but i don't move an inch to make it through. like i have always loved cooking and cook channels but all i gain from it is getting hungry and eating all kind of *** .

also fashion channels and all kind of dresses ideas running in my head, i decided to make my mum teach me how to sew just simple things, but didn't pursuit it. GOD give my mum long healthy life that she could teach me a lot more than just sewing .

and as my last wish is to read more and grow an opinion good one about all sort of life issues, see it's easy to know that the person your talking with isn't that deep almost when he open his mouth and i hate to be reflection for something am not. i love reading but when i finish a book i forget even the author name .

and only then i searched any book clubs in which we could talk and discuss books and encourage each other ,easy way to make new safe friends also .i found one but noticed that there last book review was 2 years ago and when i messaged them about why there is no action going on i had no answer.

so i have decided to make a move- a project inspired from julie and julia movie in which am going to read and share my thoughts about 2 books a month for the next 12 months. so it will all be 24 books ,i will hold on to that project no matter what coz after it's finished i will feel like new person and i will hold on to that positive attitude ,well i have nothing else to hold on to right nw and even if there was any i wont let go of my little project .

and for my start i was going through all those books i downloaded but never red ,and the first book named " please stop laughing at me " for jodee blanko , actually the name catches my eyes as i wish i don't laugh at myself for the idea of that project in hopeless way to quite like i always do, so here we go

once that project is over and i find some one i love to share good meal with i will start my own maggie-fatafeat project it's a blessing to have person you could enjoy eating tasty meal with .