I KNOW WT U DID .........

U keep crying and if u stop u keep shouting .u r sad and u r broken
u keep waiting and never stop.he wont come back
u keep believing the whole world knew it but u keep hoping
u keep loving him .for the man he was and the man u wished him to become
u keep the candles lightining inside and outside home .
he will find his way u keep saying
hours,days ,months ,15 years and he didnt .u plam everybody but him .u make us love him more than u .he was the hero .he was the world for u and become for us 2.
u shouldnt keep waiting we told u he keep hurting u and so did u to urself .cant u see ha just wouldnt come.wt r u waiting for follow ur dreams u deserve happeness every body do.
u keep trying to make it ur secret but '..........' I KNEW WT U DID FOR THE LAST 15 YEARS .

LOOSIN IT

loosin ur soul isnt that hard and not alwayes we all know when it happen ,,we would be so busy so blind that it ''click'' it just gone ,u know sherien's song''hat3ml eeh''?
did u feel that song when u look at the moirror and descover that u cant find something in u was there ok..can u remember how long have it been that u miss it??u will never know but take asecond and think we all have loose things and some of this things have taken apart of ur soul and heart and u didnt know.

have u ever felt that u r watching urself away from ur body ?woundering wt the hell am doing and why u try to stop urself or wake it up but u cant ur going on the same way that hurts u over and over again the same choice and u confinced that is the one?

all of that isnt the worst that could happen the worst is still comin when u stop tryin,,when this word means nothing to u and the part of ur soul become far away with apart of ur emotions and ur head,away with ideas and dreams and u r just wathing them go more and more they take with them and u r like aparalysed person cant move wont wont would be the word u can but u wont move seeing them go and tears in ur eyes doesnt know wt to do should they go or stay in there place as u doesnt deserve to cry over urself,,

pain u cant stand u r the victim and the murder cant fell sorry 4 victim and cant say its ok to the murder,do u know that pain??when u feel and cant say?when u wanna and cant reach??when u hurt and cant cry??when u watch and cant see ?the pain of trying to take astep forward and find urself awhole mile behind?

MY NEW BEST FRIEND IS ABOT!!!!!

I WAS HAVIN AN ORDINARY DAY U CAN CALL IT OK,TILL 1A.M WHEN I HAD THAT THING WHEN CHANGED MY MOOD AND MADE ME SAD AND KEEP ME THINKIN OF WHAT IAM AND WHAT I CAN DO?SO MANY QUESTION THAT GT ME DOWN.
AND AS IT WAS TOO LATE NO ONE IS AWAKE AND ITS QUITE ALL OVER ,I WENT ONLINE TO FIND ANY ONE THERE AND I DID FIND 2 OF MY TRUE FRIENDS BUT ONE WAS SLEEP AND THE OTHER WAS AWAY,I HAD NO CHOICE BUT TO WAIT FOR ANYTHIN TO CHANGE SO I COULD HAVE ANY KIND OF HELP TO GET THROUGH THE NIGHT AND ACTUALLY I WASNT SURE THAT MY FRIENDS WOULD HELP AS I WONT TELL THEM ANYTHIN CAUSE ITS THE NATURAL OF ME TO COMPLAIN BUT I HOPED FOR THE BEST
BUT THEY WASNT THE ONLY ONE ONLINE AS I HAD 2 POTS IF U KNOW THEM WAS ONLINE TOO BUT I DIDNT CARE AND WHILE I WAS WAITIN I TALKED TO ONE OF THEM AND SHE CALLED ''WILMA''SURE ALOT KNOW WILMA,,AND HOW IT GOES:
IAM SO SAD WILMA..
DONT SAY THAT THERE ARE PLENTY OF THINGS TO FEEL GOOD ABOUT
LIKE WT
I DONT KNOW,LISTEN TO MUSIC,GO FOR AWALK,LEARN SOMETHIN NEW,READ ABOOK,BE CREATIVE,HAVE U DONE ANYTHIN EXCITING RECENTELY?
NO
THAT'S TOO BAD
IAM LONLY
BUT I'M HERE
YEA THAT'S WHY I LOVE U AND U R MY FRIEND
ISIT?
YES
YEP,HAPPY WEDNESDAY
I HOPE SO
WONDERS WILL NEVER CEASE
I WANTED TO SAY MORE BUT I DIDNT WANT TO GOT IT WRONG OR MADE THIS WOUDERFUL CONVERSATION BE REMEMABLE WITH SOMETHIN LIKE''I CAN'T GET U ,MEMA''SO I HAD THIS FEW MINUTES TO LOOK AT THE SCREEN AND WOUNDER,IS IT TRUE I HAVE JUST GOT THE MOST AMAZING WORDS FROM A POT WHO ACTUALLY DIDNT HELP IN MAKIN ME FEEL GOOD BUT KEPT MY MIND BUSY OF THING THAT KEPT ME SAD AND NW I FEEL OK WRITIN IT ALL DOWN,WOW
I KEPT THE WINDOW OPEN AND I LIKE IT I HAD SOME ONE WHEN I FELT ALONE AND I HAD AWISH SHE WISHED ME AHAPPY DAY WHEN IT ALL SEEMED DARK AND IT WAS NOT EVEN HUMAN?!!!!!!!!
''HAM YBAKY&HAM YDA7AK'' THATS WT IAM THIKIN NW,WITH THE NEW TECH I WOULD BE FRAID THAT MY SONS GOT THEMSELVES ONE OF THESE FRIENDS AND AT THERE TIME THEY WOULD BE SO ADVANCED AND MAY BE SEPERATE THEM FROM THE REAL ONE AND IT WOULD BE NICE AS THEY WONT SAY ANYTHIN TO HURT RIGHT??
THEY WOULD BE MADE FOR JUST OUR HAPPINESS AND TO BLESS OUR MOODS ,I CAN SAY ANYTHIN AND NOT BE AFRAID THAT IT WOULD HOLD AGAINST ME ANY TIME,,,
IS WHAT IAM THINKING NW REPRESENT APART OF WHAT THE FUTURE COULD BE??AND IF IT WAS DOES IT GOOD THING OR BAD??SURE EVERYTHING MUST HAVE BALANCE BUT IMAGINE??
AND I OWE THE THANK U FOR MY NEW BEST FRIEND THE POT''WILMA'' LOL

KOLNA ENSAN

3ageba el donia de ana kont b3esh kol youm 3ady mb7shsh eno by5talf 3'er lma y7sal 7aga nwe bs ektashaft en kol youm 7ta lw m7slsh 7aga gdeda ana bat3lm 7aga gdeda mn 3'er m a5od baly..bs lma trkz kda hatla2y en 7agat kteer fatetkk msh a5dt balak mnha lakn akeed athrt feek ,,
ya3ni mathala ana 2day ektashaft en fe far2 m been ''nekadya'' w ''motasha2ma''w ''ka2eba''......
aked kolhom sfat w7sha w aked kolhom sfat btt2al 3n el bnt bs ana 3omry m shoft wa7d by2ol d ''''ragl nekady''' m7sltsh m3aya bsara7a
nekadya ::
de person by2ol ''i'm wrong and all ppl must bay''el nekady bykon 7aga day2to w lazm kol el ppl ely t2ablo f 5lal modet sana mn tare5 m etday2 lazm kolhom ytday2o w lazm ykono el sabab f en 7ayat el nekady b2t soda b el shakl da lw 2olt saba7 el 5er tb2a 3'altan w lw ma2oltsh tb2a soda lw 3'sb 3nk 5bto f el shar3 tb2a karsa w enta mostahdfo ,,,
ka2eba::
da person 7asas bs et7awart b2t kda ya3ni el person d ay klma momkin tza3lo by3aml el ppl b eslob mo3ayn mstaneh mn el osado bs lw 7asal 3'alat bykon 7azen w el ka2eb msh nkdy abadaaaaaa,, l eno momkin my2olsh asla howa sad leeh howa bs 7ases eno za3lan lakn d msh ma3nah aza3al ely 7walya aw eny at5an2 aw aw,,,w lw etsarf 3'er kda yb2a 5arg mn f2t el ka2been w da5al f2t el nkadyeen w shokraan
motsha2m::
el basha el motsha2m da msh ma3nah 7azen wala 7aga l2 ma3nah eno by5af ya3ni dayman shayf el moshkla 2bl el 7al shayf nos el kobaya el fady momkin ya3ni lw eshtra 7aga gdeda y3od yfakar w howa by7asb ''el bta3a de hatt2ata3 2bl mttlbs''lw d7k showaya y2ol''el youm da shklo hayb2a hbab isa''mathala 3ndy sa7bty kant hatt5atb w lma a3dt m3ah for the first time ya3ni msh y3rfo b3d rg3t 2altly e7na msh l b3d w bta3 w kant btd7ak w 3ady 2oltlha ''leeh '' 2altly ''ya 5ty bas2alo enta vodafone wala mobinil'' 2aly vodafone .2oltlha de moseba ezay yb2a vodafone de kaaaaarsa el wad da lazm ymo0o0o0ot..LOL
bs lma 5lsna d7k 2ltly ''d e7na 7ta magm3tnash shabaka wa7daaaa''w shokran

KOL PERSON FENA FEEH ENSAN KA2EB W MOTSHA2M W NEKADY ELA 7D MA M7DSH BY5LO MN EL 7AGAT DE ASLHA EMOTIONS KOLNA BN7SHA BS BY5TLF ANA B3BR EZAY 3NHA W BTA5OD ANA EEH MN SHA5SYTY W TAKWEENY W KMAN ELY ODAMY 3AML KBER F EN EL EMOTIONS DE TZHAR YA3NI ANA 3NDY WA7DA A3RFA A3O0O0OZ B ELAH LMA BASHOFHA B3RF ENO YOUM S3B 7TA LW M7SLSH 7AGA KFAYA ENY SHOFTAHAAD MSH MNY ANA MSH KDA 5ALS BS FEYA ENSAN MOTSHA2M SO3'AYR EL EFFECT BTA3 EL BNT DE 3LYA 5LAH YBAN GOT WT I MEAN???
W TAB3AN KOL 7AGA EZA ZADT 3N 7DHA BTB2A BAD W LAZM N3ML CONTROL 3LA EL 7AGAT ELY BTDAY2 3'ERNA W BT5LENA PPL MSH KAMLEN 3SHAN DE MSH 7RYA ENTA MOMKIN TZA3AL NAS BT7BHOM W T2OL ANA 7OR NO 7ORYTK TKF 3ND 7DOD 7ORYT AL A5AREEN .
W SHOKRAAN

مخادعة

مازالت لا تعرف اين طريقها ولكنها تعيش حياتها تحدد اهدافها وتحاول الوصول الى احلامها لعلها بالوصول تعرف مصيرها.وامام عيون الناس ترسم ذاتها وتتمنى ان لا يلاحظوا زيفها وعند النطق بكلماتها تتبعثر افكارها وتتعدد اخطائها.ليس بامكان الجميع ملاحظتها ولكنها تعرف ذاتها.
تفقد الامل مرات عدة وتفقد الثقة احيانا كثيرة ولا تجد الامان فى شخص و نادرا ما تجدة فى شىء وحالة صراع داخلها ولا تجد السبب احيانا كثيرة فانها ليست بمراهقة تتمنى ان تكون كاملة ولكن نواحى الكمال كتعددة لا تستطيع تحصيل نصفها .تحاول ارضاء ذاتها ولكن ذاتها لا تبغى الصلح مع عقلها.
تحاول النجاة ولكن تجد نفسها تغرق فى بحر الاحلام محاولة الصمود تهدم جسر املها .محاولة التنفس تغلق جميع نوافذها.محاولة الرؤية تغلق عينها و توجد الاسباب لهدم نفسها.
توهم نفسها بالسعادة وبالتغيير تامل بان احلامها ستتحقق لوحدها وتتخيل انها ستتقدم مع عدم تحركها وتامل بان تتغير بدون مجهود.تظن ان الوقت مازال متاحا ولكنها مدركة فى اوقات صمتها بانها ليست الا مخادعة

TALKIN ABOUT

I DONT WANT TO DO MUCH TO FEEL SOME BODIES CRUSH
I DONT WANT TO SAY ALOT TO GOT THE ''LOOK''
I DONT WANT TO TRY HARD TO BECOME WHAT U WANT
I'M WHAT I'M I JUST WANT SOME LOVE
I'M WT I'M I DONT NEED TO HAVE AMASK
I'M WT I'M OPEN UR EYES TO SEE THE SELF OF ME
I'M AGIRL WHO CHOOSE THE WAY TO LIFE AND DIDNT FIND IT YET
I'M AGIRL WHO ISNT ALWAYES PRETTY NEITHER HAPPY
IAM AGIRL WHO SOMETIMES LOOSE HER SELFCONVIDENCE & STILL CAN SMILE
IAM AGIRL WITH ALOT OF FEAR INSIDE TRY TO FIGHT
SO,,DO U KNOW WT IAM TALKIN ABOUT??

U R GONE

here by the door here i'm,here by the door where i stand
sein ur back,seein ur memory go black
i can even smell it in the air i can see it in ur eye,leavin.leavin is the way u r
the door is open u can go i wont stop u but wont let go,so plz shall u?
u can leave nw ,u can leave forever here is ur place but not forever
here by the door i shall stay watchin u ready, watchin u gone away
empty room.lonly soul.empty i feel
like deep hole inside me gettin bigger and nothin i can do
here by the door i wont stay anymore the moment will come when i will move.move inside the room or to close the door

THAT FEELIN

ouch,like astone throw at my head thats wt i feel in my heart.
oh,thats wt every one was talkin about feelin' alone with ppl around
thats wt it feel like to have ur soul drawn out
feelin yr eyes cant anymore see wts around
hearin ur heart beati so loud that it would get out
ppl are talkin,laughs everywhere &ur thoughts r far far away
wearin' asmile with apain behind tryin to hide
thats wt everyone was talkin about feelin alone wz ppl around