they all was talkin about how much i luved her when i was ababy and that i couldnt stay away from her that when she go to work i kept cryin all day and never eat or move till she is come back that her friends wasnt wanna me to stay wiz them as they were afraid that may be somethin bad happen to me...
this days we werent at egypt so we had no body but eachother i depended on her but that was normal and she depended on me and we got it through,,when we got egypt i didnt know anyone even my dad and i didnt care as long as she was her but she had to go and this time wiz out me and that broke both of us so it wasnt long when she called me and asked me to say the truth if i wanna her back and i couldnt hold it no more and start to cry that i wanna u back and she applied my demand as she used to,and thats when i start to remember every min. wiz her i didnt need no one to tell me ..
she had no one from the day she was born her mami passed away and her dad got married and got children and other life she wasnt welcome in it but she tried so hard and she failed .when she got married she wasnt that lucky either it wasnt somebodies fault but she didnt get anything of wt she deserve or hoped for it,,she got us 3 poor little girls ...and we were aload more than ahelp to give,but she used to say that she asked god as she was alone to give her the friend and the sis and the daughter,,and here we are as she asked god replied..
but never ever i felt that we were anythin near to that we used to hurt her give her sadness and alwayes askin never givin alwayes talkin never listenin alwayes complainin never thankin,,and so her days go on...
i used to hear her sryin at night as ian suddenly awake she kept herself in aroom far from us one day i entered and found her so beautiful dressin awonderful dress and high hells i asked her where r u goin???and she answered am not goin anywhere darlin iam just waitin ur dady..go to sleep
my dady wasnt home he never entered it as long as she were there so many nights but i havent entered the room on her ever again as i was achild i kept thinkin that may be my dad had come and i didnt wanna to meet him i just didnt know him but my dad was and still da best...
u may think that we werent ahappy family but i have never felt that way or that i wanna anythin tell i was grown up as she didnt let that happen at all not even once u may think that i hated my dad or she did but it had never happen till that day she luv him as much as she could as she passes that 2 us she teach us how 2 luv never hate no matter wt nw sometimes i wish she wouldnt raise us like that coz life isnt the same no more neither is ppl,,
u will never imagine how pain she felt and how courage she was u will never guess how could she smiled but she laugh all along,she havent met any one till nw give her anythin '''MY MAMI'''was the one who alwayes give she is agive never atalker and i used to hear her pray 4 that and god replied her answer
yes,,we will never know how much the thing mean to us till its gone or after along time and thats the way it goes i didmt know how much u mean to us or how much we luv u or hoe much was important u r in our lives till u gone and then i have never stopped crying over u ''MAMI''i can awake at night cryin coz i miss u and i learnt how to cry wiz out avoice just like u no one know ''MAMI''
no one knows how sad iam over u and ow much i miss u and how much i luv u they all guess that is the best i can give and that i have limits and alwayes control my emotion but that coz they doesnt know ''MAMI''i kept it asecret even to u coz u may me got worried over me but sometimes u know coz u know me more than i do.
wiz u am adifferent person no laws no limits no thinkin u r the best thing in me when i wanna ppl know me i wanna know me through u coz ur eyes is the only one that can see me i know that i cant get it through to u but ''MAMI'' i love u so much that ur luv for real keep me breathless some times and i need u so much that i cant close my eyes for so many night and i know that every time i talk to u i cant explain myself and i got it all wrong but u know me better and again i luv u...
its not just awords to say i really do feel this wayi have never felt luv till i grow up and descovered my luv to u i will know if i have fall in luv again just besoz i will know that emotions again and i will never luv any one like i luv u .
MAMI U DESERVE ALL DA LUV WORLD CAN GIVE AND MORE AND AS I KNOW U GOT NONE OF IT WHILE U R ALIVE AM SURE U WILL GOT IT IN OTHER LIFE THIS THOUGHT THAT IS WT KEEPS ME ALIVE MUM ........COZ NO ONE CAN GIVE U ANYTHIN U DESERVE BUT GOD SO I PRAY HIM EVERYDAY JUST FOR U AND I KNOW IT WILL ANSWERED
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